I have been off the wagon for 3 weeks.
Really, it's been since January on and off.
There, I said it, it's out, and I am no longer hiding it.
I haven't counted points, made sure to get all my fruits and veggies, taken my MV, got in any exercise, in about 3 weeks. Yes, I made wiser choices at some points, but overall, I fell off hard. This weekend was unreal what I ate. Sunday I opted out on lunch, and basically ate chocolate from the minute I woke up, until I went to bed.
So, needless to say, the scale will not be pretty on Thursday night. It's now Monday and I will begin psycing myself up for it. I'm expecting 5-6 pounds. And you know what? I simply CAN NOT be upset about it. Why? Because it's my fault. Every time I ate something I said "I shouldn't eat this, but I will" And it has to STOP! It will stop. As of right now, I am getting right back on track. I have no celebrations or special occassions coming up, so I really have no excuse. No more binging on Thursday nights after WI, no more Starbucks treat's with my daily coffee tastings I have to do. I know what all the pastries taste like, and I know how to find the underlying flavours in the coffee's, so I will know what type of pastry it will go with. I don't need to taste the oat fudge bar everytime I drink Pike's Place, Gold Coast, Verona, or any other coffee. I don't need to eat the croissant with the Komodo Dragon coffee because I know that it goes well with buttery pasteries. I DONT NEED IT!
I have no food in my house as I ate myself dry before going home on Friday. I will get groceries, and none of it will incude ANYTHING that I can induldge in. I'm going to take the Cappucino Frozen Yogurt in all of it's deliciousness upstairs for Jenny, because she loves it and can afford to eat it.
That's it. Its out, and I WILL hold myself accountable to each and every item that I put in my mouth.
Oh yea, I'm giving up latte's too, because I drink too many of them. I don't want to be fat anymore. Summer is coming and I WILL wear the first bikini of my life. It's that simple.